Feelings: A peek into Sunny’s heart

“I feel lonely.”

            There! I finally said it!

                        Like there’s something wrong with saying those words...

Fear.

            But fear of what?

                        Vulnerability? Weakness? Exposure?

No.

            What I’m afraid of is feelings;

                        acknowledging their presence.

Realizing I have them.

            *Shudders*

                        Realizing I have them for you…

Ugh!

            This is why I never, ever use those words!

                        Because they open the door for more.

More words, like “I miss you”,

            “I want to see you”.

                        And finally “I love you”.

All that will end with the words I fear the most,

            “It’s over”.

                        Or worse…

                                                            “I love you too”.